Shut-In

For over six years now, I have become a social recluse, in truth a shut-in.  I have reached the point in my GP that I am actually afraid to leave the house.  I haven't been to visit my family in a long long time.  The only time I have seen my parents is when they drove me to and from the emergency room.  In fact, I have yet to meet my youngest nephew who is over one years old.  I have missed Thanksgiving and Christmas celebrations year after year. It is very depressing, trust me.

Six years ago I was on the fast-track to becoming an ordained minister through my General Baptist church.  I was ministering to people around the world with the organization I created and ran, The Road to God Ministry.  I was giving sermons in church and evangelizing through the internet, the distribution of tracts in Jewish newspapers and working city and county fairs.  And I absolutely loved it!

But then it happened...I got sick.  I thought it was the stomach flu, but it never went away.  What is GP to me?  It is the stomach flu for life.  Never knowing when I would vomit without warning.  Never knowing if I could tolerate the unrelenting nausea.  Never knowing if I could take pain medication for the agony GP puts me through.  Never knowing if I should go to the local emergency room, even though they see me as a habitual drug seeker instead of a patient in intense pain.

I know I am ranting here, but I am hoping there are others out there who could pass on some good advice as to how to be properly social while being ill.  Please leave comments or send me a message.

Happy Hanukkah everyone.